Thanks to everyone who wished me a happy birthday on here. <3

Anyway...I almost feel guilty when I think about how much fun I had on my birthday. I feel the same way when I think about everything I have and always have had in my life. Especially when people ask me what I got for my birthday, or for Christmas. What am I supposed to say? Should I just make a list of everything I got and sound as if I'm rubbing it in their faces? I just hate being asked what I got...because I don't know...I'm weird like that.

These thoughts are always on my head. And I try to believe in God and that everything happens for a reason but when I see people suffering from whatever I just find it really hard to believe in anything. I have had bad shit happen to me but somehow I always forget about it and I think that my life has been and still is perfect. I've had the best parents & well..family, that anyone could ask for, the greatest friends too and I've just always had everything I've needed and wanted. I guess that's because I come from a wealthy family. Sometimes that makes me feel bad when I think of others who don't have as much as me. I don't feel like that around my friends because they're the same but when I see other people who can't even buy kids enough food to eat... it just kills. I wonder why some people are lucky to get everything and some are not? Shouldn't everyone be the same? Because aren't we the same after all? I'm not better than some other kid who has nothing. I'm not better than anyone.

I do appreciate and I am really thankful for everything I have but you know...I just wish everyone was the same I guess.

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